6.23.2008

A Life in Music. Transitions and Dreams

Singing in a choir has become a indulgence to me. From the time that I've heard a choir perform way back when I was 5 years old, my mind has never stopped from looking for that sound that will make my life meaningful. There is this hidden longing ever since to sing. I've tried to compete (yes, compete!) for singing contests, but I was not lucky to win.

It was back in my college days that the longing has come to an end. I was one of the founding members of the PATTS Universal League of Singing Enthusiasts, the choral group of PATTS College of Aeronautics. I was a all-male choir at first, but then the ladies were welcomed. With PULSE, I was able to bring out the male voice (bass kasi ako eh hahaha) in me. And with the help of the trainers and conductors, the music the choir sings are performed magnificently. It touches hearts and souls. After a year of stay, I was voted to be the Chieftain (president) of PULSE, and with the leadership skills (meron ba?), together with the rest of the officers and advisers, we made the choir flourish and grow. Below is the group picture of PULSE, February 2007. Yours truly sits third from the left.


But then, since college life is about to end, so is my tenure to the choir. Though I wish to stay, time may never permit me to do so. It was a tearkjerking graduation for me because I'm not just saying goodbye to my College days, but I'm bidding farewell also to the people who were my colleagues to my indulgence.


Even not a member of the choir anymore, I still commited my self to PULSE, I attended their workshops and even joined the choir in a competition where we placed third. Christmas time in 2007 came and I joined the annual caroling. It was them who first rejoiced upon my feat of placing in the top 10 of the Aeronautical Board Licensure Examination (can't forget the faces of the people when I came into the school, Awwww). February came and the annual concert of PULSE was held. Only the students were allowed to join the concert since this is a school affair. I watched in awe as the choir sings my favorite songs. I could still see myself singing with them, but since I'm not a student anymore, its time for me to give way to the rest of the group to fly on their own wings.

I thought that my indulgences will end that day, but then God was so Good...

Right after the concert, I attended a six o'clock mass at EDSA Shrine. To attend mass that time was just a monthly schedule, but then who would have known something else has to happen.

The choir who serve the mass sung in a Capella one of my favorite inspirational songs, Lead Me Lord. They sung it beautifully, save for some sharps. Once more, I've heard a choir of heavenly voices and there is something with the group that magnetizes me to join them. True as it is, there came an announcement before the mass ends that "...The Singing Christians are currently looking for members..."

There was no time wasted. After the mass, I immediately proceeded to the sacristy to find a member of the choir and posed to join.

That night was the start of another spiritual indulgence.

Three months now has passed since I first sung with The Singing Christians. I was even blessed to have joined one the concerts and a few PULSE members saw the show. Indeed, God has made the way for me to flourish and share my blessings once more in the choral scene.

Below is the picture of The Singing Christians, yours truly at the back row, second from the right.


One of my inspirations to be in the choir is the worldly-acclaimed choral group The Philippine Madrigal Singers. Their vocal prowess was always been a challenge to me, as well as the discipline, the harmony, the dynamics. It feels too good to be true that a group like them exists, even If I had the chance to meet in person the man behind Madz, Mark Anthony Carpio (I had a book signed by him!). It is in fact a wild dream to be with them. Do I see my self inside this semicircle below? Only time can tell, God only knows.


But still, to serve God with the blessings he gave is still my life's ride today. May it be PATTS Universal League of Singing Enthusiasts, The Singing Christians or The Philippine Madrigal Singers, it will take more than gratitude to be serving the Lord through music.

Blessed be GOD!!

6.16.2008

From Dusk Till Dawn


Yey! Its my first time to post a picture from my SE K770i phone!!
I think its the first picture I took with this phone.
This is shot around 6 pm just the front yard.

It may be dusk, time to rest for the rest of the folk, but for me, its just about time to start the day. With my graveyard shift, all I need is the darkness of the night to start my work. Parang vampire lang ang drama, but nevertheless, that's the life. It starts at night. No traffic travel.

But still, its nighttime... Dark, cold, uncertain...

Everything ends at morning. Sleeps all day. Wait till the darkness covers the land one more...

Ganun lang talaga... Wala na akong magawa eh... Good thing I'm enjoying it... Kung hindi...

6.07.2008

Right Here... Waiting


How does it feel to have a question that doesn't have an answer?
How does it feel to give yourself in but always ignored?
How does it feel to wait and be patient?
How can a love grow when time stands barrier?
How much more has to be given in order to break the barrier and profess the love kept inside?
What is TIME without love and what is LOVE without time??
I'm still waiting...

6.06.2008

A Song In Heart

Kung ndi ka naman namatay kakatawa sa video na ito. Pero deep inside ever queer man's heart, the message is so striking... Uy nakarelate... hahahaha

The Philippine Madrigal Singers sings Boy...

5.29.2008

Midnight Blues

It was a midnight shift.

I arrived early. It was an hour before the shift and I am at the base of the PBCom building in Makati. It was a regular scene to see the rest of the employees of the different companies in the building to take their smoke breaks along the facade. I could feel the readiness to take the job save for an issue; I haven't taken my dinner yet. I will be ridiculous to go to work on an empty stomach so I decided to walk to a fastfood nearby and grab something for a quick dinner.

As I turn around and head towards the fastfood, I could feel the cool breeze of the night on my face. The velvety wind wipes my face with a caressing touch. The chill in the air made me shiver and stiffened my walking. I cannot see the wind, but its running motion on my face felt like a mighty hand to take care of all my worries and frustrations. The cold night left me standing in the sidewalks struggling to survive the chill.

Memories came flowing through me as the walk dashes into the night.

Its been months since there was a conflict. And until now, nothing was settled. The conflict continues, and the wounds are getting deeper. Both parties are left shattered. Lives have changed since the war started. One continues to worsen the opponent's being by making the opponent's life a living hell. But then the opponent has to understand. The immaturity that overwhelms the one will never cease to do things to batter the opponent. The one doesn't know that life was never the same for the opponent since the ruckus escalated to the point that it change the path of life the opponent has to take. The opponent can never blame enough the one for all the things done. The opponent will just take the blows and accept the fact that the one may never understand things that the opponent does. The one may do all sorts of things to the opponent, but the latter still stands, unshaken, countinuously understanding. But the one WILL NEVER be the same as of the opponent. The one may be GOOD, but the opponent will always be BETTER. None of the things that the opponent has done will ever equal to what the one has done. The opponent does MORE, will be BETTER and always be GREATER.

Things were never the same; I'm on the job that doesn't go with my degree, I have to get home and never felt the ease of a TRUE home and I'm always left to make the sacrifices for someone who has a frail mind.

Oh, the fastfood's here. Time to eat.

5.25.2008

Vote for the New Seven Wonders!!

Ayan, at makikigulo na rin ako sa Seven Wonders of the world craze!!!
Try natin iboto ang mga sumusunod:

Chocolate Hills


Mayon Volcano

Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park


Tubbataha Reef

You are to choose seven nominees, basta kailangan nasa top 4 yang apat na places na yan. Bahala na kayo pumili ng top 5 to 7.

To vote and see the current ranking of our wonders, click on the link below:

LIVERANKING!!!

Let's take pride in sharing the beauty of the Pearl of the Orient!!!
Mabuhay ang angking kagandahan ng Pilipinas!!!

5.07.2008

Yakap Ni Spongebob


Paglabas ng opisina, dumudugo ang cellphone ko sa dami ng text. Hindi ko mahawakan ang cp dahil bawal sa loob. Sa locker lang iiwan. Eto at busy-busyhan ang lolo nyo na magbasa ng messages. Hindi na kase mapasukan ng text ang cp. Puno na ang inbox.
'Boone, san ka na? Dito na kami sa resort.'
'Ansaya dito kuya. Sunod ka huh?'
'Andami na namin. Sunod kayo.'

May schedule na outing ang CBIT sa isang resort sa Malabon. Alas otso ng umaga ang meeting time pero alas diyes na, wala pa ako. Kakalabas ko lang ng opisina kase. At hindi halatang magswiswimming ako. Parang mamumundok sa laki ang dala kong bag. Ilang damit, isang twalyang Spongebob na favorite ko, kaunting chichirya para may makukutkot ang barkadings sa cottage.
From Makati, sumakay ako ng bus papuntang LRT. Nagtren naman ako mula Gil Puyat hanggang Monumento. Naglakad ako hanggang sakayan ng jeep na may signboard na Polo. Bumaba ako ng Maysilo Petron. Mula doon ay sinundo ako ni Ceejay at Dennis.
In fairness at in fairview naman, maganda ang resort. Hindi man kalakihan ang pool pero ayos naman ang cottage. Sulit ang bayad. 1.5K lang sa isang malaking cottage. Good for 40+ na tao para sa maghapon at magdamag na ang rate. P300 lang ang contribution ng bawat isa. May bonggang-bonggang lunch at dinner na yon. Panalo diba? Kaso, hindi lang kami ang nasa resort. May mga hampas-lupa, may mga lasenggero, may mga pasosyal, butas naman ang trunks (ahihihi!!), may mga harabas kung lumangoy na akala mo balyena pero kaliliit naman ng mga katawan. At ang pinakamalala, dahil sa dami ng naliligo sa pool, nangangamoy na ang tubig. Sabi ko nga kay Icko,"Ano ba to, nagkakanal na yung tubig!" Yun lang.
Almost 1 pm na nang nakarating ako. Keri nang wala pang tulog since kahapon basta makalangoy at makapagunwind. Minsan lang naman kasi dumarating ang mga ganitong chances so go na.
Pagdating ko pa lang, sarap na sarap na ang mga hinayupak sa kakalangoy. Eto ang ilan sa mga pictures nila. Hala't matawa at matuwa kayo hahaha....
Kinahapunan, nagkaroon ng Videoke Idol, wherein pumili ang mga organizers na mga kakantahin, sampung OPM na panlalake at sampung foreign songs na puro pambirit na pambabae. But there's a catch; lahat ng OPM, nakafalsetto sila, octave higher (kaya kamusta ang Gaya ng Dati... hahahaha) tapos lahat ng pambirit octave lower. Ayun, we have Mothy as the Videoke Idol...
After the Videoke challenge is the main event; the very first Ms. Gay CBIT. Akala namin, walang sasali. Pero wag ka, effort kung effort ang mga candiates, namitas ng mga dahon for props, kumuha ng mga alampay at ginawang gown, may nagsuot ng bra at panty (at in fairness at fairview, wichikels jukat ang hunchback of NOTREdam ni bakla hahaha). May special participation ang lolo Kyle as the makeup artist, yours truly and Lee as the hosts.
Mothy - Ms. Philippines
Iñakie - Ms. USA
Kaito - Ms. Japan
Larryl - Ms. Australia
With the matching background ng Annie's Song, rampadoodledoo ang mga becky sa serenade number, at ang mga audience, walang humpay sa kakatawa.
Eto ang video ng huli nilang rampa.
At dahil pageant, may matching talent portion pa na talaga namang ineffort talaga isipin at gawin ng mga candidates. May question and answer din na pinadugo ang ilong ng mga becky ahihi. Natapos ang pageant na namigay pa ng mga prizes (as in prizes!) sa mga special awardees; Ms. Creamsilk para kay Larryl na kalbo (with the matching Creamsilk sachets as sash wahahahaha!!!), cash prizes for the runners up and title holder. Btw, Kaito won the title. Eto ang ilang eksena sa pageant.
Ayan, at natapos din ang maghapong kabaklaan sa resort. Enjoy at sad ako at the same time. Hindi kasi nakarating ang aking asawa dahil pagod. Inaalagaan pa kasi ang mga anak namin eh. Hahaha. Btw, suot ko sa resort ang aking favorite flip-flops shown below.

4.25.2008

Plakda!!

Ayan. ilang minuto na lang... tapos na ulit ang shift.
Ilang ikot pa ng orasan, makakauwi na ako.
Umaga na.
Patapos na ang magdamagang trabaho.

Maiinitan na din ang nangangatog kong kalamnan.
Hindi ko na kasi matiis ang lamig ng opis.
Kuntodo jaket pa, kahit na summer pa ngayon.
Ganun talaga, eh malakas ang aircon eh.

Matatapos na rin ang trabaho.
Sa dami ng pinipindot ko sa computer.
Sa dami ng iuupdate na system.
Sa dami ng tawag.
Sa dami ng mga makukulit.
Sa dami ng mga maarte.
Sa dami na mga nagmamakaawa pero wala akong magawa.
Sa dami ng mga nakakairitang kausap.
Sa dami ng mga tatanga-tanga. Banyaga kuno. Che!

Ayan na, ika-sampu at kalahati na ng umaga.
Sa wakas.
Tapos na ang araw.
Pero kailangan pang may ayusin.
Kailangang magligpit.
Mag-ayos ng pinagtrabahuhan.

Aba, lintek, isang oras na pala ang nakalipas ng matapos ang shift.
Kakatapos ko lang ayusin ang aking cubicle.
Makakalabas na rin sa malamig na ofis.

Matagal ang elevator.
Umaga kasi.
Lahat sila papasok pa lang.
Kami paalis na.
Puro puno ang elevator pagbukas.
ANO BA?? PAUWIIIN NA KAMI PWEDE??
Hay salamat, may isang bakanteng elevator.
Sugod ang lahat ng baba.
Ang labas...
Sardinas ang elevator.
Sarsa na lang ang kulang.

Nakababa na rin. Makakalabas na ng gusali.
Anak ng...
Umuulan???
Wala akong dalang payong.
Buti may underpass. Makakatawid ako sa kabilang ibayo.
Sugod na lang sa ulan.
Pauwi naman eh.
Kaya na yan.

Pasakay ako sa bus.
Sosyal ang bus.
Dalawa ang tv.
Pero ndi yun ang pakay ko.
Kailangang kumportable ang upo ko.
Yakap ang bag, umupo ako sa pinakasulok ng bus.
Eto na ang kundoktor.
"Manong, Crossing po, isa lang."
Binigyan na ako ng tiket ni manong.
Malamig sa bus.
Parang opis lang.
Ansarap umidlip.
Inaantok na talaga ako.
Iidlip lang.
Ambigat ng mata ako...

Naalimpungatan ako.
May tumabi pala sa akin.
Mamang mataba.
Tumingin ako sa bintana ng bus.

PUTIK!!!

CUBAO NA TO AH!!!!

4.10.2008

My Best Breakfast...

Perhaps this day would just be as bad as the graveyard shifts.

While on the jeep going to work, I could feel the hassles of an early bird. I didn't have my breakfast before leaving home. I could feel the emptiness of my stomach as if blurbs to have something to fill it. Having a day shift (for the first time in three weeks, sigh!) is the most convenient thing that I have now. Waking early in the morning and sleeping at nighttime. Hahahaha. Just like the old days. Schooling days. But then, the habit of missing breakfast (literal breakfast, that is) is a big no no. I could miss my vanity routines, yes, but never the breakfast.

Here I go, struggling for the Mr. Punctual 2008 awardee. I should be at work at least a few hours before the shift. Kamusta naman ang maagang pumasok??

Kabababa ko lang ng jeep. Hindi pa ako nakakababa eh langhap ko na ang simoy ng Libis. Mabangong mabaho. Medyo mausok ang sidewalk na lalakaran ko. Smoggy kase. Kamusta ang polusyon sa paligid.

Eto na, nasa ibaba na ako ng building. Aakyat na ako para makapaglog-in sa biometrics. Pero parang may nakalimutan ako...

Hindi pa nga pala ako nagbreakfast.

Punta ako sa matandang puti ang balbas. Bumili ako ng manok at dinurog na patatas. Wala nang inuming kasama. Marami nun sa pantry. Dun na lang ako kukuha.

Pumasok ako ng gusali. Parang galing sa department store ang eksena. Andaming dala. May bag, may mug, may plastic na may pagkain. Parang nagshopping lang ba.

Ang haba ng pila sa elevator. Keri lang. Wait patiently for the turn.

Bumukas ang elevator. Hanapin ang button na may katabing numerong 21. Doon ang palapag namin. Nangangamoy ang pagkain ko. Pasensya sa mga magugutom. Madamot ako today hahaha.

Bumukas ang elevator. Iniwan kay 'Menung Gurd' ang cellphone at bag. Bawal sa loob eh. Parang department store talaga antaray. May number pa. Baggage counter. Plang!

Pumasok na ako sa pantry. Kitang kita ang kabuuan ng Pasig sa aking kinatatayuan. Kasama na ang bulubundukin ng Rizal. Ang ganda tingnan. Inspiring kumain. Humanap ako ng pwesto sa tabi ng salaming bintana.

Hindi ko alintana ang oras habang kumakain at nakatingin sa malayo. Nakakaaliw ang paligid. Napakarelaxing. Nakatatanggal ng stress. Parang higit pa sa biyaya ng pagkain ang aking natamo ng mga oras na iyon. Ang kagandahan ng tanawin. Ang katiwasayan ng paligid. Ang unti-unting pagsikat ng araw sa silangan. Hay...

BUUUURRRRPPP!!!

Sorry sa malakas na dighay. Ahahaha

4.01.2008

I Believe

I have this test taken from a website which offers, well, tests and quizzes that hones your personality and being. Being a visionary and advocate of change, diversity and intercultural respect, I took the 'How can I change the world?' quiz. Here is the result.

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Children are our future, and it's in our best interests to give them the tools they need to help make the world a better place. With your drive and smarts, you're sure to be a positive influence in their lives.

Whether you're tutoring neighborhood kids, coaching a soccer team, or just serving as a good role model, you know it's important to pave the way for our future generations and offer them the support and encouragement they need to follow their dreams. One thing's clear — the future looks bright, and it's because of motivated people like you. Way to go!

Years ago, I took a few tests and here are the results:

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Providers are nurturing and are concerned for the welfare of others. They can recognize exactly what people need and their friendly, helpful, social nature makes them feel comforted. They have kind and generous hearts and are personable, talkative, and outward with their emotions. Their openness and sensitivity make them concerned about the way others see them. They have the capacity for profound care and sympathy for others.

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This means that compared to the eight other Enneagram types, you have a strong sense of willpower and self-confidence. In fact, you're the kind of resourceful, decisive person who is often committed to making things happen.

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That means you're open minded, extroverted, free-spirited, and independent. Chances are you're pretty liberal. You're like a magnet for love and affection. People adore you. And, thanks to that healthy dose of self-confidence, you're super-flexible.

How do we know all this? How do we know you're a great leader at work? Or that you're a self-starter and will always volunteer to take on a job? How could we have divined that you're an excellent communicator and tend to spread your enthusiasm to others?

Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions — questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance — the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Skydiver.

And that's just scratching the surface.

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People who are Visual Linguists are highly intelligent and have many diverse talents. They have especially strong linguistic talents and are very good at interpreting visual information. They've got their feet on the ground, but their minds are capable of very complex, abstract thought. Compared to others, they are easily able to see situations from many different angles. They also understand how things work in a very practical way.

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People who have Orange as the brightest color of their aura are good at tuning in to the feelings of others and treating them with sensitivity, and they expect others to reciprocate. Their trust in their emotional inner guide may draw them to work that is more deeply fulfilling, as opposed to work that just provides a paycheck.

In their love lives, they're emotionally expressive. They may show their affection most often by sharing how they feel and asking their partners to do the same. They have an above-average ability to identify and express their feelings, particularly to romantic partners.

Their advanced ability to express feelings prevents energy from getting stuck in this layer of their aura, which can help them avoid a variety of emotional and physical ailments.