An Audience's Heart...

Living in FAITH was never been as true to me after watching this movie… Love that is willing to change everything, even the course of our fate, become as real as I never believed...

Just when we think things in life are meant to happen just because it has to happen... Think again… they are MEANT to happen… There is something in these things that happen to us that, in some way or another, will do something in us; perhaps, make us realize something apart from what we always have in mind or the other way around, something we are always clinging to…

This will be a time that you might me as pathetic as I can be… But I’m sharing my thoughts anyway… whether you like it or not…

It was a Wednesday, first week of classes, College Life… This is my last stay with my Segunda Alma Mater… So I’m putting so much effort and time to it… Unfortunately, there’s this ‘first week’ sickness hanging around the campus… Not all professors are coming to class yet, for all reasons whatsoever… my class is still up to 9 pm, but I decided to dismiss myself from the campus 5 pm… Thanks to the ‘sickness’… I wanted to go somewhere, spend time with myself, other than answering to people’s plea to having myself with them in times when they need someone to talk to…

I’ve been like that these past few years; here come a number of friends asking me for a ‘date’ so that we can talk about their problems personally... Love problems to be exact… And there I go, listening to them on a lunch with pastas and burgers and fries (not the fastfood things, I tell you... they are something other than that) with their emotions and frustrations and hurts and hopes and everything… With what I have said I never felt enough comfort, nor enough solace to sooth their aching hearts and battered souls... I just wanted to do something more… But I don’t know what and how to start… now I realize, being with those persons and listening to them IS enough, for a while I’ve helped them forget things, isn’t it?? But it seems they have found some other person to ‘date’ which I really find good, so that he will have other options and other company other that what I am and what I can and cannot do… added to the fact that their own problems even get to my mind and takes a loooooong time to disperse… sigh

So we’re back to that Wednesday, no ‘dates’ so I decided to date myself, treat something and perhaps listen to myself for once!!!! I went to a mall I QC (and my school is in parañaque, so imagine the travel killing me hehe) and then I saw this movie, Lake House who was just showing on the theaters for the first day… Oh, I have a crush on both the characters, Keannu Reeves and Sandra Bullock, (so much with ‘dual’ personality) so I decided to buy tickets for the last full show… I thought it was just another movie trip, but it proved me wrong…

I won’t be bragging so much about the story of the movie here, but as a whole… IT MOVED ME… I was able to learn so much about Love that transcends everything just for it to be felt and shared… It was so touching in the end of the story that I didn’t notice all these tears flowing down my cheek as I exit the movie house… All this time I was looking for the things I thought was just some wretched thinking… it all hit me… Living in FAITH was never been as true to me after watching this movie… Love that is willing to change everything, even the course of our fate, become as real as I never believed… Now I realized that being a part of these ‘dates’ made me a BIG part of these people’s lives... might as well saved them from something worse to happen, or have opened them to something their eye might have never seen before… The need for me to thrive in this planet have been more meaningful that to have something done… and that FAITH for that special moment to come was never been stronger before…

I’ve been single for some time already (and some = very looooooong) and waiting and looking is just getting somehow tiring, but when I think about that movie I watched, It just spawns new hope, greater faith and bolder meaning of LOVE… So to that someone I have never met yet, I want that person to know that I LOVE YOU… Time will let us cross our paths… And when I see you, even if time and GOD blocks our destinies from being with each other, I know LOVE will transcend from me to you, and yours to me as well… I have this faith stronger that the walls of Troy or the Great Wall of China of the Berlin Wall…. Nothing will stop me from loving you, wherever you are, whatever you might be doing, whoever you might be with and however life may take you…

I DO LOVE YOU…